paul habeeb. blog.

I don’t really know what to do right now. My family just went out to eat. It was good. I had a panini….Nothing’s really going on right now. It’s quiet around the house. I’m bored. Waitin for some people to get on so I can talk to ‘em. I might make a new site or something. Maybe a skin for the blog. I dunno.

If anyone wants to donate a digital camera to me, I would be most grateful…cause the one I’ve got is in our videocamera, and it doesn’t take very good pictures. I’ve been wanting a digicam phor a while now, but I’m in debt to my dad $150 phor my laptop. Whoah…something just fell over, like a coatrack or something..anyway, yeah so if you feel like giving me one, I’ll take it. Just email me if you wanna give it to me.

I just woke up like 5 minutes ago. So I’m really tired. The weird thing is I think I’m the first person awake, which never happens. I checked all my usual sites, like gizmodo, cryptome, neworder, linux box, slashdot, hackwire, the register, linux journal, security focus, security tracker, security corporation, active security, packet storm, suprnova, roothack, truncode, darkwired, and atomix’s modblog.

Yesterday at lunch I bought one of those Pepsi’s where you can win a free song from Itunes, but I used the method where you can tell if you are gonna win or not, so I made sure I won. I bought MxPx - Quit Your Life, which I’m listening to now. Today my cousins are coming over, so I’m not gonna be able to be on the computer at all, cause my parents want me to hang out with ‘em. AHHHHHHH!!! I don’t want to. They can find something to do themselves! This is my weekend! I don’t want to entertain someone!!!!!!! I just feel like sitting here on the computer, doing whatever.

im so tired of being here suppressed by all my childish fears. and if you have to leave, i wish that you would just leave, cause your presence still ingers here and it won’t leave me alone. these wounds wont seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there’s just too much that time cannot erase. when you cried i’d wipe away all of your tears. when you’d scream i’d fight away all of your fears. I held you hand through all of these years, but you still have all of me. you used to captivate me by your resonating light. now i’m bound by the life you left behind. you face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me. these wounds won’t seem to heal, this pain is just too real. there’s just too much that time cannot erase. when you cried i’d wipe away all of your tears. when you’d scream i’d fight away all of your fears. I held you hand through all of these years, but you still have all of me. i’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone, but though you’re still with me, i’ve been alone all along. when you cried i’d wipe away all of your tears. when you’d scream i’d fight away all of your fears. I held you hand through all of these years, but you still have all of me.

EDIT: Check this toilet out: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/4326340/.

Today in PE we did weightlifting. I hate weightlifting. It makes me so tired. I drove home today, which was odd, because my mom never lets me drive home. I probably shouldn’t have. When pulling out of the school’s parking lot I started turning late, so I almost ran into the cars going the other way..my mom phreaked. Then we were sitting at a stop light, and this dude pulled up beside us and his music was kinda loud, so I rolled down the windows and turned on my music. She got really mad at me for that one. Then there were these girls jogging, and I thought they were going to turn the corner, but they just went straight, and I almost hit them. I think I won’t be driving for a while.

It seems like tonight I have a lot of homework, or at least more than usual. I’ll probably only do half of it. Better start though.

I’m on New Order [link]!!. I’ll post more after school.

EDIT [after school]: Well, I go to Slashdot, and what do I see: AMD COULD PROFIT FROM BUFFER OVERFLOW PROTECTION. AAHHHHHHH!!!! How can you do that to us AMD?? I’m really mad right now. I knew nothing good could ever come out of AMD. Even though Intel also is in on it.

I just watched The Matrix with my dad. He had never seen it before, so yesterday he went out and bought it. He thought it was pretty cool. Now he just needs to see the two sequels. I’ve only seen the first two, and I’m waiting for the third to come out on dvd.

Today I’ve just been watching TV mostly. I woke up at 11 because my sister had a volleyball game, and my parents went to that, so no one was here to bug me and wake me up. It felt good, but I’m still tired. I’m almost done reading the latest issue of “Linux Journal”. I bought it a while back, but never read it. If you’re into Linux, then I highly recommend it. There’s not really much going on, and I don’t think much will be going on today, either, since I don’t plan on going anywhere. At least I hope nothing goes on.

I’m so hungry right now. My mom is going to be making spaghetti and garlic bread soon I think, so that should satisfy me for at least a little while. Suprnova.org is practically down, and all of the mirrors are the same. I can connect on occasion, but I only get to the home page, and no farther. Anyone know a good place for torrents?

Earlier this year I took the PLAN test. Basically it is the ACT, but for sophomores. My composite test score was 27 [out of 32]. I beat 99% of the nation in every area except for science, where I beat 95% of the nation. But this all is beside the point. On the test, you are asked questions about what you like to do, how much school you are planning on taking, etc. Colleges look at this information [and you test score], and from that they send you brochures, emails, and other things to try to get you to go to their college. I’ve got brochures from West Point, Marquette, Miami Florida, and I have received emails from Miami Florida, Yale, and a couple others. I’m not planning on attending any of these universities, but I just think that it is interesting because I don’t think I could make West Point or Yale with B+’s and A’s. It just goes to show that…well I don’t know, so you decide.

On to the rest of my life. Today in PE we had a basketball skills test. We had to make 2 out of 3 layups, and 4 out of 8 free throws. I only had 1 layup and 3 free throws. On Monday we have a written test over basketball, which should be pretty easy, given the fact that our teacher gave us a sheet with the questions and answers on them. It will be fill in the blank, and on the sheet he underlined the word that won’t be there. So I’ve got an easy A there.

All this week we’ve been having good weather, like in the 40s and 50s. Nice considering that last week it was in the teens. Me and my friends have started going back out for lunch. We usually go to Jimmy Johns, and we get the exact same thing. The guys there even know us, and sometimes they’ve got our order ready before we come in the door. Then we go to the gas station next door and get something to drink, cause drinks are expensive at JJ. I would consider working there if I had my driver’s license.

Last year me and another guy in my class created this thing called “pacemaking”. Basically we stick our cd player in our pocket, run the cord up our sleeve, and then listen to music during class by putting the headphone in our palm and leaning on it. We use the small headphones that have no plastic thing that goes around your head. Our cd player is the “pacemaker” and the cd is the “battery”. I haven’t done it much this year, but I did it a bunch last year. One time we got a bunch of people to bring their cd players and do it. It’s pretty fun, but I don’t learn at all when I’m doing it.

EDIT: I’ve been told that some people’s schools don’t really care if you use your cd player during class, but ours gets really mad and keeps the cd player and doesn’t give it back until the end of the year.

For Christmas, I treated myself to a laptop. It’s a Sony PCG-FRV37, for those who care. I’m dual booting WinXP and Slackware 9.1. Windows for the games, and Slack for everything else. I highly recommend Slackware for everyone interested in Linux. Even if you aren’t interested, go download Slackware! It is free and 100% legal. Your computer won’t crash, and you can do everything you can on your Windows machine, maybe even more. Back to the laptop. I’m still in debt $150, so I’ve got to work some to get that paid off. I went into Best Buy wanting to get a $1100 laptop, and walked out spending a total of $2000 because of warranties, tax, and the laptop was $1500. My dad wanted them to do some other stuff too, which probably wasn’t necessary, but I guess it doesn’t matter now. It’s got a 2.8GHz processor with 512MB of RAM, 60GB HD, and a DVD burner. Although the processor is supposedly as fast as my dekstop’s, it seems a bit slower. I don’t ever use my desktop, because my sister is on it all the time, and it really isn’t mine. Its more like my dads, and he lent it to me.

So that’s it for today. I’ll post again later today, or tomorrow. Whenever I have a spare moment. I guess I’ll go watch some tv, or read a book or something. Oh yeah, props to atomix for speaking of me in his blog. Check his out. I command you. l8tr.

Well, after seeing atomix’s blog here, I decided to start an account, because modblog is just so much better than livejournal. I’ve had a few in the past, and my first one I actually ran by myself. I went through maybe 6 or 7 designs over the course of a year. Some were horrible, others were awesome. Especially the last one I did. It was taken down because the dude hosting my site got suspended. Right now I’m supposed to be doing Spanish homework, but I don’t feel like it. Homework is one of the worst things a teacher can do to a student. It just wastes time, because I already know the stuff. Just give me the test! School would be so much better that way. yellog was over earlier, and we watched the broken episode number 3. If you don’t know what the broken is, then you can check it out here. My parents are at one of my sister’s volleyball games right now. I went a few days ago, but sports bore me to the core, so I decided not to go tonight. I don’t see what’s up with sports, I mean come on. People always ask me why I don’t like sports, and I always tell them that I JUST HATE THEM!!!! THEY AREN”T INTERESTING!!! THEY BORE ME!!!! Its not like I’m horrible at them, either. If I practiced at all, I could be semi-ok. I skateboarded for a while, but then I started not liking it during the winter, since I couldn’t skate. So now I pretty much sit at home on the computer gaming, programming, or anything else. PE is the worst part of my day. We just started having PE this semester, because last semester I had Health — and it was the best class I have even taken in my life!!! There were only like 8 of us in the class, and so we just goofed for the entire class period. We would go through the book looking for funny pictures, and we found a lot. On p. 217, there was a picture that looked exactly like one of our teachers, and from the angle it was at, it seemed as if he was raping this kid. It was pretty funny cause the teacher is so introverted and soft-spoken, and I don’t know why. But it was funny. And then there was this kid who had fallen over on his bike, but it looked like he was listening for the Indians coming. Funny stuff. So I’ve got this friend. His name is Brice, or as I like to call him b-rice. Anyway, there’s this girl we both know, and he really thinks I should ask her out. For a while I was resisting, but now I think I’m gonna give in. I just have to get the right timing. I don’t see her everyday, though so thats a hard thing to find. If you have any suggestions on where I should ask her to, or what to say, just comment on this post. I already have a place or two in mind, but I want to see what you guys think. Wow, I guess this is a long post. Normally I don’t post this long, so I don’t know what happened. Ahh well. Until next time.